Happy Birthday, Hayley!

Just about every day, I am overwhelmed by how much I love my friend, Hayley.

It’s her birthday and I’m not rich.  She wouldn’t want that kind of gift anyway.

I’ve been thinking a lot about death.  

Many times I find myself attending a funeral to support the living who are mourning someone who’s passed and think to myself after someone has spoken to honor the deceased, “Man, I wish I had known her better.  She seems wonderful.”

Why not honor Hayley while she still lives?  And what better day is there than on the anniversary of her birth?  

There’s something about being in your late twenties that is stressful.  Whether you have a baby on your hip, are still chipping away at a degree, or whatever your successes are, people stop giving you second chances.  As adults, we are expected to suck it up and get things done.  It gets harder and harder to find time to figure out what’s grieving you or creating anxiety and it’s even harder to find someone who truly understands those feelings, makes time to listen, and genuinely cares. It’s terrifying.

I am lucky.  I have Hayley.  She’s mine and I earned her.  She’s the kindest gal I know and takes the most time to settle on anything.  She isn’t indecisive at all, she’s just incredibly careful.  She cares about people with depth I don’t even understand.  I can sense it and that’s enough for me. 

Something I love about her is how private she keeps her life, thoughts, and feelings.  She seems so serious, but she’s just intense.  It’s different.  While I would love to tell everyone I know about each remarkable experience I’ve had with Hayley, I just can’t.  Our secret world is sacred, but I’ll share a few that are out in the atmosphere.

Let’s start with the time, back when we worked together at Bravo, that I sent a text to her about how bad I wanted jelly beans.  The fact that she brought them to me doesn’t seem that remarkable, but at that time it was.  I was at a lonely, low point in my life.  In my experience, there are very few people who would actually go out of their way to make a tiny little dream come true.  She brought two bags, not one.  She knew I needed proof that someone out there gave a shit about me.  Feeling that way seems absurd on our normal days, doesn’t it?  It’s ridiculous in retrospect to think that people don’t care, but the fact is that we sometimes believe those dark thoughts.  She gets it.

Before I continue, I feel like putting down some random facts about her:

She looks and seems to be exactly like the singer Lorde.  They share the same birthday.

Once upon a time, she was a Myspace celebrity.

She has really good dance moves.  Every time we dance, I always think I look cool, then look over to see her being way more gangsta, way more cool.  

She has the best ideas for couples Halloween costumes.  Keenan and 50 Cent was my favorite.

She hates most reality TV.

She’s afraid of most dogs.

She loves spicy food and eats it all the time even though she’s not supposed to.  

She gets new shoes for her birthday.

She does NOT... give up... hardly ever.  Maybe never, ever.

She loves Zak so much. 

She misses Mavis. 

She is a dreamy student who thinks for herself, researches, and has original work. 

My favorite food is something she cooks.  It’s this insane mushroom chicken thing.  I don’t know what it is, but it’s amazing every time.  She’s such a great cook. 

Hayley lives in an adobe house with her husband Brad (aka Steak Daddy) where reception is spotty at best, so we can’t call each other.  We depend heavily on text.  I know how ridiculous this sounds, but my hand is sometimes sore from texting her.  We text every day, all day long.  I have never had a friend who has given so much of herself.  She has never left me hanging or responded with something short or cold.  Whether I’m telling her about something dumb or typing through teary eyes, she responds genuinely.  It’s been this way for years.  She’s never faltered.

I know what our communication would have been like if we knew each other as kids.  She and I would exchange tightly folded notes on paper and speak to each other with walkie talkies after bedtime.  In middle school we would skip class and talk in the bathroom.  In high school, we would sneak off campus and have coffee together somewhere quiet.  

Communication is such a blessing.  It’s unreal.

Hayley pays attention to details.  She doesn’t mean to exactly.  For her, it’s innate.  Nothing goes unnoticed.  She’s impossible to scare and difficult to surprise.  It requires a lot of planning, anyway. 

She is a perfectionist.  She obsesses over details and quality.  It shows in her photography, her appearance, her devotion to the people she loves, and her delivery of ideas, gifts, and advice.

For as complex as she is, Hayley is one of the most simple people I know.  She is very easy to please if you’re just real with her.  She is the only person I’ve met that respects honesty as much as me.  She loves the things in life that are free. 

I can’t even think of anything more fun than hanging out with this girl.  She is such a weirdo and so intelligent.  Her comedic timing is impeccable.  Most people wouldn’t know this because she doesn’t put herself out there right away.  People often perceive her as shy or cold because she is reserved.  She’s just careful and at times, nervous.  She cares about what people think because she has integrity.  If people only knew how much good she sees in them, they would never question her silence.

She’s so funny.  I can’t explain this.  Just take my word for it.  She’s the funniest girl I know.

She does obsess, but because she cares.

She is amazing at predicting trends.  I wish that was a job she could apply for.  She would own the company in no time.  At least once a month, she tells me about something she thinks is cool and a month later it’s everywhere. 

She never forgets anything.  She always asks and always makes jokes when things are too heavy.  However, she’s never impatient with my blues.  If I won’t cheer up, she’s willing to just be sad with me.  

I wish people knew the sounds I’ve heard her make.  She makes some crazy sounds.  She is such a fox--in both its literal and symbolic sense.  A fox is mysterious, cunning, clever, and elusive. 

She finds things on the internet that I could never even dream of.

She once made a website of me, for me.  Here it is:  (I don’t expect anyone to understand or like it, but it made me laugh out loud.) 

http://cindyasks.ytmnd.com/



She makes the most carefully created music mixes I’ve ever heard.  I beg her for mixes all the time.  She somehow finds music that speaks to me, or tells her stories, or makes me happy or comfortable with being sad.  She weaves it together so that the songs are seamless.  Mostly they are songs I’ve never heard, even if they are old.
She’s just so damn cool.

She is so in love with her family and is always missing them.  I imagine they miss her too.

Her home is full of comfort and intrigue.  Just today she put a plant inside a ceramic cat instead of a traditional pot and it’s amazing.  They have empty frames on the wall.  Their record player works and gets used.  Her kitchen is jam-packed with goodies.    While she has nice appliances, nothing about it is pretentious.  One can feel comfortable making a sandwich or warming up leftovers without asking.

Even Koda (my grumpy dog) loves her.  She’s a lot like him, though.  She’s not grumpy, but she’s carefree when she’s unrestrained and takes a while to trust people.  She’s a protector. 

If I had to choose any roommate, she would be it.

She taught me about a “five-head”.  It’s a person with a huge forehead.  Get it?  

She sees beauty in the darkest of things.

She’s into science...

and death...

and astrology (she’s better than me at guessing signs)...

and science fiction...

and the cultures associated with different decades...

and politics.

She can keep up with any conversation.  If I come at her with, “Dude, do you remember Caboodles?” or “I just don’t understand why people still refuse to acknowledge racism for what it is,” she has a response.  She’s interested.  She’s onboard.  

She’s always down for anything.  If I wanted to have a John Travolta movie night, she would say yes.  If I wanted to try to make a Pakistani dinner, she would eat it.  She’s just always down.  She’s so laid back and accepting.  Her sense of adventure is on point.  

Hayley knows a LOT about music trivia and random facts. 

She has those sleepy Elvis eyes, sensual lips, and hair for miles.

In my darkest moments, Hayley has understood.


In my happiest moments, Hayley has been in favor.

In my most uncertain of moments, Hayley has hoped for the best and been honest.  She doesn’t tell me what I want to hear, but she encourages me and makes me feel better.

She never compromises her own ethics, though.  If I like something and she doesn’t, she won’t humor me.  I respect that.

This girl... has never judged me.  Even when I’ve admitted to the dumbest, most selfish and ego-driven things, she says it’s okay.  If she has judged me, she's hidden it well.  That's enough for me.

I know a million people have thought of her today and a bunch have wished her well or given gifts, so I’m just like everyone else.  The difference is that I would die for her.  I want her to know that, and she’s reading this now.

If you don’t know Hayley like I do, give it a try.  She’s the sweetest, funniest, most interesting person you’ll ever know. 

With only the smallest tip of an iceberg’s worth of information behind this, I hope you know how much I love you, how much I need you, and how grateful and blessed I feel to have you in my world, Peanut.  I hope you felt special on your birthday, because that’s the least of what you are.

Love, Cindy

Horoscope for February 1st, 2012

Aries:  You're in a good place to receive good energy or opportunities.  Be careful not to overspend or overindulge, as that particular urge is likely to be present today.  Try to keep your mind open and your focus strong.

Taurus:  It's a uniquely good time to appreciate the things you have in common with others instead of focusing on your differences.  It's the perfect time to write a card or give a compliment or token of appreciation to someone you care about.  Take advantage of this positive energy as tomorrow may be a little more bumpy.

Gemini:  Today should be all about planning for your future.  Get finances in order and secure your ambitions.  Map out strategies and make lists while you're being blessed with a stronger ability to focus than usual.  It may be a good idea to seek professional help for your concerns.

Cancer:  Your romantic life is on center stage today.  If you're not happy with where things have been going, it's a good time to sort out what you would like to change or make decisions about staying or leaving.  If things are going well, you're likely to be in a very amorous mood.  Plan something special.

Leo:  It's a good time to embrace the generosity that exists in abundance in your nature.  Being of service to others should feel rewarding to you at this time.  Surround yourself with beauty and positivity no matter what.

Virgo:  Interactions with the opposite sex may be tense today.  Your sexual drive is heightened which can translate into a feeling of irritability or awkwardness.  Try not to fight a desire to focus on your own needs and just go with it.  Do try to be considerate of others along the way.

Libra:  Your focus for the day is likely to be on pleasure, relaxation, and enjoyment.  It's not a good time to compete or involve yourself in strenuous activities.  Socialization and being around friendly, cooperative people is what you should be aiming for at this time.

Scorpio:  You might be a little needy today, so plan ahead.  You should stand up for yourself if you find you're in a situation where things aren't going in the right direction.  You're likely to just go along with whatever, but you shouldn't be a doormat.  Social gatherings are favored.  Staying home is favored.  Whatever your comfort and source of loving energy is... that's where you need to be.

Sagittarius:  There's no use in focusing on things you already understand today.  Fresh ideas and new experiences are where you'll find comfort and stimulation at this time.  Try to temper your impulses.  Be considerate to those around you who may not feel comfortable springing forward.  If you must, spring forward without them.  Just remember that it may cost you.

Capricorn:  It's a great day for doing mental work.  Your thoughts are likely to be clear and your ability to focus is sharp.  Disagreements may arise as your voiced opinion could be unnerving to someone around you.  A little sensitivity can go a long way.

Aquarius:  Today may be a little funky as you are likely to feel isolated or sad for no reason.  It's a good idea to spend a little time alone in reflection.  Though it may be a difficult time, it can be fruitful.  You're likely to gain insight about things that have been bothering you or holding you back.  Just dig your teeth in and get to the bottom of your internal workings.  Through artistic or creative expression, tomorrow promises to be less intense.

Pisces:  Hey, be careful of these things today:  retail therapy, emotional eating, and self-medicating.  Just stick to the straight and narrow and talk to someone about your feelings or write them down.  Leave destructive actions or impulsive behavior for a more appropriate time.

Horoscope for December 19th, 2012

Aries:  You're probably going to find that you're more magnetic and sexually attractive than usual today.  Expect your romantic life to run smoothly, if you have one.  Also, try not to focus on everything that has to be done and all the places you have to be.  You'll get too anxious.  Just relax and enjoy the ride instead.

Taurus:  Your desire for beauty and luxury is probably stronger than usual today.  Seek out beautiful objects, places, or people to surround yourself with.  If you're an artist or creative person, it's a good time to work on projects.  Also, do a mental scan of the people you keep around.  Avoid Negative Nelly at this time.

Gemini:  Today is a good day for getting feedback from others about what you're doing.  Influential people are likely to emerge in your life.  The ability to communicate is activated for you and those around you at this time.  Take advantage and expand your horizons.

Cancer:  Be careful with sharp objects and glass today.  You're likely to be in a bit of a resistant or rebellious mood.  Avoid being constrained or confined to avoid conflict at this time.  Don't sweat your moods at this time.  Work on visualizations and the concept of faking it until you make it.  You can really make progress with positivity if you try.

Leo:  You may feel a little frazzled or overwhelmed today.  A break is deserved and recommended for you.  You're likely to find yourself engaged in stimulating conversations about controversial topics.  Pace yourself.  If you're feeling restless, you're likely to say or do things you may regret later.

Virgo:  It's likely that you're feeling overly eager and restless about getting your point across.  Take a moment to sort your thoughts and organize your feelings.  Be prepared to say your piece when it's time.  On a side note, try reflecting on 2012.  It's been kind of a rough year hasn't it?  Don't worry.  By the end of the month, you will start to get little messages from the universe showing you that good things are in store.

Libra:  Focus on making your life more stable and secure today.  It's a great time to run errands, tie up loose ends, and finish up projects.  It's also a good time to get rid of things that no longer serve a purpose in your life--be it objects or people.  Seek advice from a trusted source when considering long term decisions.  Your ability to focus is strong at this time.

Scorpio:  Your love life is at the center of attention today.  You should feel more attractive and enigmatic than usual.  There's a positive flow of energy between you and others at this time, so embrace some good company if you can.  Creative efforts will be fulfilling at this time.

Sagittarius:  It's a good time to work in groups and spend time with friends.  This kind of interaction will flourish for you today.  You probably have a lot on your plate, so even if you feel like it's best to work independently, sharing your workload will be for the best as you'll have time later for leisurely tasks.

Capricorn:  It's a really good time to be with friends and enjoy the company of a partner or someone you're close to.  Be careful if you're out shopping.  You're in a position to buy something you really can't afford.

Aquarius:  Don't be surprised if you find yourself having intellectual disagreements with others today.  Luckily, it's a good time for you to do mental work, thus placing you in a position to speak clearly and hold your own effectively.  Think carefully about each decision you're faced with at this time.

Pisces:  Expect to feel more bold and enterprising than usual today.  You can take advantage of this energy by breaking free of old habits or working to expand your business and ideas to a larger audience.  It's a good time to consider a move if you're in the market.  Also, if there's been something heavy weighing on your mind, it would be beneficial to get it out in the open today.  Don't be afraid of conflict.  

Horoscope for November 30, 2012

Aries:  Pay attention to your desire for affection or romance today.  If you're too demanding, there's a good chance you won't get the attention you need.  If you don't want to risk the frustration, try to distract yourself by getting some exercise and staying busy with work instead.

Taurus:  Focus on determining what it means to have a positive outlook today.  Your ability to communicate clearly and affectively is heightened at this time and you're able to receive people warmly.    It would be foolish not to embrace this energy and have a wonderful day.  Also, it's likely that you've been considering a change and yearning for a change of scenery.  By all means, nurture this inspired feeling, but don't make any hasty decisions.  Be your careful, steady self and think about everything carefully and with patience.

Gemini:  If things are going well for you, you're likely to feel affectionate and happy around others.  Gather your partner and/or close friends for some quality time today.  However, if you're not happy with your personal life, you'll probably dwell on that more intensely than usual.  Try to stay busy and distracted if you're not feeling the love.

Cancer:  The winds of change are getting ready to blow your way, so I hope you're ready.  My guess is that you're already preparing for a change and working towards it.  Stay on this path.

Leo:  It's a service day for the lions.  Lend and ear and offer advice to those who may step onto your path today.  You're in a position to make improvements.  It's a good time to resolve any unsettled issues at home.

Virgo:  Your confidence should be high today as you work smoothly and communicate well with others.  Friendship and alliance bonds are strengthening at this time.

Libra:  You're likely to take a vacation from your typical indecisiveness today and enjoy a feeling of certainty about what you want.  You're also not likely to be in a conciliatory mood or to be afraid to speak your mind--which naturally sounds like an invitation for conflict.  As Libra, you don't usually enjoy conflict unless it concerns arguing over what is fair, so be careful.

Scorpio:  Take a quick inventory of your life and get an idea of where it looks like you're heading.  Focus on finishing what you've started and prepare to start new things.

Sagittarius:  It will be best if you make a decision right now to refuse dealing with negative people today.  Focus on creating, discovering, and exploring.  You're gifted with the ability to make connections others are likely to overlook at this time.  

Capricorn:  It is a good time for you to examine what it is that is keeping you from getting close to others.  It could be pain from being hurt in the past or something that has been overlooked or ignored.  Whatever it is, bring it out into the open or simply let it go.  There is energy for you that will support this action today.

Aquarius: Don't give up on a problem you're facing today.  Remember that there is always a way out and get to work.  Stay positive.

Pisces:  Avoid romantic topics as you focus on building a foundation for your future today.  Prepare your mind to focus and fulfill obligations.  Avoid getting sloppy or wandering off task.  You'll probably feel the urge to seek affection or some kind of romantic company, but it's really better to just focus on work at this time.

Horoscope for November 28, 2012

Aries:  You're likely to have a lot on your plate as you prepare for December.  If you don't, you can expect to find a lot of things here and there that need to be done as the last few days of November wrap up.  You may want to mentally prepare yourself to take it easy today, as patience is in short supply.

Taurus:  You may bee feeling the urge to break free from your routine.  The urge may be so strong that you're considering a career change or move.  This isn't in your comfort zone since Taurus prefers the stability of routine over the fickleness and unpredictability of change.  However, change is innate in human life.  Perhaps it is time to consider your options.  Note:  If you're all worked up over changing jobs specifically because of your financial situation, wait this one out.  There are energies working with your sign today that make financial topics sensitive.  A new job may not be the answer.

Gemini: If someone is pressuring you to make a decision today, put some distance between him/her and yourself.  You don't want to rush yourself to have an answer.  Just shut that person out and take your time.  Alternately, there's a good chance you'll be burning off nervous energy working furiously towards a goal you may not even be aware of.  I suggest fully going with your impulses at this time and figuring out the rest later.

Cancer:  For crabs that are single and looking, you may feel a stronger urge than usual to find someone to fall for.  Resist this feeling and continue to take your time and be selective.  It's a good night to go out with friends or invite them over to your nest.  Crabs who are in a relationship will enjoy being social today.  You should make time to enjoy a dinner out or some kind of social gathering at least with your partner, but ideally with added friends too.

Leo: It would be nice if everything would just go according to the plan, but it will probably be more if a day full of delays and adjustments. Try to be open to changes and accepting of tardiness. In the grand scheme of things these details are small, right?

Virgo: If you're experiencing difficulty with some new endeavor, just think if it as growing pains. You're dreaming big and that's a good thing right now. Just keep taking steps forward and you'll be on the right path.

Libra:  It's a good time to experiment with new ideas and ways of doing things.  Make sure to stay entertained and busy today.  Get creative.  Be social.  This should be comfortable and easy for you.

Scorpio:  Power struggles are likely for you today because you're likely to be focused and working towards some goal.  You may not be able to identify the goal you're working towards.  Just know that whatever you're doing at this time is important and useful.  Beware of emotional reactions to financial issues at this time.  You're likely to overreact.

Sagittarius:  If you're in a relationship, your partner is likely to seem moody at this time.  You are likely to have trouble detaching yourself from the situation, but try anyway.  It would be better if you could focus on other things and stay busy.  If you're reading this and it's too late to heed my advice, just meditate on the fact that any trouble you've had was destined to happen and trust in God, the universe, or whatever it is you believe in to repair anything that may have bee disturbed.

Capricorn:  Your feelings towards friends and your personal relationships are likely to be more intense than usual today.  The need to share, give and receive love, and to be accepted is very likely to be strong at this time.  Give those you care about some attention and acknowledgement.

Aquarius:  Many Aquarians are likely to be a little obsessed with getting rid of something at this time.  Energy spent on making changes and revisions is energy well spent today.  Though it's late in the day to be giving horoscope advice, I'll will warn that it's not a good time to sign documents or make important decisions because of a mental fogginess you probably have.  In a few days, though you're already quite astute today, business dealings will be favored with the return of your excellent ability to perceive clearly the situation you're in.

Pisces:  If you're feeling social today, open yourself to the idea of befriending someone that doesn't seem like your "type."  Pisces is in a great position to be rewarded with friendship from unlikely places at this time.  Your patience with family members, however, is likely to be in short supply for the time being.  Tomorrow will bring more patience for everyone.

Horoscope for November 23, 2012

Aries:  You're likely to find yourself interested in things that normally don't appeal to you.  If you're in a close, bonded relationship, you may have difficulty.  Also, be aware of any feelings of envy or jealousy at this time.  Take a closer look at their advantages or what it is you think they have easier and understand that everything may not be as it seems.  Now look at your own situation and find something to be thankful for.

Taurus:  Mercury is still in retrograde (until around the 27th) and today it really shows.  You can blame any difficulty communicating, technical issues, and restlessness on Mercury.  Try to be patient and take solace in knowing this time will pass.  You should be feeling more focused and confident by the 26th.  It's a good time to start new projects, however, you should keep new ideas that aren't ready to be launched to yourself until next week.

Gemini: An idea or plan you've been working towards should be coming into fruition or getting some kind of recognition at this time.  As this energizes you, remember not to be too extravagant in your actions.  You don't want to go overboard.  Also, it's not a good idea to ask for help from others today.  Working alone is favored.

Cancer:  It's likely that you're tired of dealing with financial issues, but you're having to deal with another one today.  Don't make the mistake of digging yourself deeper into debt or borrowing money in haste as a means of solving your issues.  Come up with a way to fix your problem without spending or taking a loan.  You're not in a position to let things go today, so be sure to have patience with family members, close friends, and/or your partner as you may be a little edgy.

Leo:  Be sure to slow your pace today.  If you don't, you're likely to have little mishaps and accidents at this time.  Arguments are likely if you don't make up your mind to relax and be open.  I strongly suggest avoiding such things since Mercury is still in retrograde.  Trying to communicate during this period is a waste of everyone's time.  A break from your usual routine is favorable.

Virgo:  As you know, nice guys and girls don't always finish last.  At this time, you're likely to be in a position where you can choose to be kind and considerate or to be selfish and rude and step on some toes to reach first place.  While it's important that you assert yourself, there's never any need to be a jerk--especially since Virgo prefers to be kind anyway.  You've probably felt a little foggy today and your focus may be a little weak.  Don't fret.  You'll get your clarity back soon.

Libra:  You may be disappointed with a certain relationship at this time.  There isn't a big change that needs to happen, but a few small ones.  Figure out where you can make new beginnings and start making small strides.  You're likely to be more decisive and driven than usual by tomorrow.

Scorpio:  From what I can gather regarding Scorpio, it's a good time to make some changes.  Decide what new commitments you'd like to make and get started.  The universe seems to be poised and ready to meet you halfway with support.  Keep up with your diet and exercise goals.  Focus on serving others.  Try not to overlook any small details today because they're likely to end up being important later on.

Sagittarius:  Your emotions are likely to overpower logic today.  Enjoy the company of those you care about as your attachment to loved ones is stronger than usual at this time.  In reference to it being Black Friday and spending season, be reasonable.  Try to think of creative ways to spend less and avoid extravagance in gift-giving this year, should you choose to participate.

Capricorn:  Your best bet for today is to work on creative projects and things that do not require you to conform to someone else's standards.  You're likely to have a lot of energy and drive to be productive.  Expect this blessing to last all the way through December.  Plan to start meeting your goals.

Aquarius:  I have a suggestion for you.  Take a moment and think about a close relationship or situation you're in that you may be taking for granted.  It's important that you understand and appreciate this person or circumstance life has given you.  Another point of advice is to resist the urge to force your will on others at this time.  Interactions with men are likely to be rather tense today.

Pisces:  You may have trouble focusing today because of a dreamy state you're likely to find yourself in.  Expect to feel extra sensitive.  If you intuitively feel suspicious of someone you normally trust, go with your gut.  Also, if you're one of the many Pisceans in line to receive a special financial bonus from the universe, temper your spending.  Hold onto that money no matter what.  It's not a good time to spend.

Horoscope for November 20, 2012

Aries:  It's a good time to start a new diet or exercise plan.  Be careful in your relationships today.  Try not to be too critical or cold.  Many Aries are finding themselves in a situation that they would like to get out of.  If it's been going on for too long and you're feeling depressed about it, understand that it will pass eventually and try to stay positive.

Taurus:  Your personal preferences are likely to be more important to you than usual right now.  Explore your ability to recognize quality, but try not to force your opinions on others.  Don't be surprised if someone you normally get along with picks a fight today.  Make sure you're not being taken for granted and be honest/open.  You're in a good place to work harmoniously with others if you choose to.

Gemini:  It's likely that you're reflecting on the journey you've been on and asking, "What if... ?"  Don't waste time wondering how things could have been different and focus on continuing forward instead.  It's a really good day for socializing and enjoying time with your friends and family.  Keep your schedule open.

Cancer:  This day beckons the crab to make important, difficult decisions.  If you find yourself questioning your beliefs, I encourage you to spend time on the topic.  It's important that you figure out how to reach a mentally stable place at this time.  Invite trusted individuals to help you recognize all of your options and ensure that you don't miss any opportunities.

Leo:  You're likely to have a sober and realistic outlook on love at this time.  Keep the counsel of your oldest, truest friends for support.  You may be expecting the worst because of letdowns you've experienced in the past.  Refuse this type of thinking.  Be sure to get out of the house and find a change of scenery today.  A miscommunication is likely with a lover or friend, so be prepared to fix it if it happens.  Plan to beautify your home tomorrow.

Virgo:  Be careful with your spending and indulging today.  It's a great time to share good fortune with friends and to be social.  Having a party of some kind is favored, but be reasonable.  Set a budget even if you're just getting dinner with a friend.

Libra:  Spend time examining your preferences and values today.  You're going to have to make a decision regarding a certain friendship or love relationship and you'll want to be certain of where you stand ahead of time.  Libra is indecisive by nature, so it will help if you've secured your preferences before you're forced to make a complex decision.  Also, it's a good day to start a diet if you've been planning to.

Scorpio:  It's a great day to do business.  You should feel powerful and able to articulate your thoughts effectively right now.  Unexpected fortune is likely to come to you today.  Be open and honest.  Also, if you're suspicious of someone everyone else seems to trust easily, don't back down.  There's no need to speak of your distrust openly, but act accordingly.  In time, you'll be glad you listened to your intuition--as usual.  Plan to treat yourself, improve your appearance, and/or beautify your home tomorrow.

Sagittarius:  Your personal magnetism is strong today and you should treat yourself to some pampering or a new accessory for your home.  Be ready to say yes to an opportunity in love.  For Sadges who are attached, the relationship is likely to improve.  For single Sadges that are looking, you're likely to meet someone soon.  If you're an uninterested, independent Sadge, forget this offering and carry on.

Capricorn:  You can expect to find yourself thinking about things you put to rest a long time ago.  Don't be alarmed.  It's just your unconscious mind being stirred.  Stirring the depths of your mind and inadvertently focusing on the past may lead you to feel conflicted when considering a new opportunity or goal.  If you catch yourself thinking you don't deserve success or rewards, stop and redirect your mind.  Don't put limits on yourself.

Aquarius:  You may feel a little confused or conflicted today.  Spend time clarifying your thoughts and embracing a feeling of compassion for others at this time.  Making decisions about your home or family is favored.  Don't waste too much time dwelling on the past.  Don't let some person you don't want to deal with stand in the way of your progress.  Confront your feelings and move forward.

Pisces:  Be careful with money today because you're in a position to spend unnecessarily.  Also, be prepared to stand up for  yourself if you're given the choice to say something or just take one for the team.  You'll be respected for speaking up.  It's a good time to start up a new diet or exercise plan.  Also, take a moment to identify what may be holding you back in life.  Consider how you may eliminate these obstacles.

Horoscope for November 13, 2012

Aries:  Even if it's something very small, you're likely to feel a great sense of accomplishment over meeting some goal, finishing a project, or concentrating easily on your daily tasks.  You're a real go-getter by nature, but try to tap into your softer side today and relax a little.  Be sensitive.

Taurus:  Mental restlessness may compel you to stay out and about today.  If you find yourself conversing with another who strongly disagrees with you, see what you can learn from the situation.  There's a good chance you'll hear from someone you haven't talked to in a long time or that you'll get a mysterious answer to a question you asked long ago.  Keep your eyes open.

Gemini:  It's a good day to rearrange or beautify your domestic realm in some way.  It's also a good time to work out any issues you're having in close relationships.  It's a good time for communicating, which is lucky because communication in general is difficult for most people during this time.

Cancer:  Today is perfect for a party.  If you can't throw one or don't have one to attend, it will still work to embrace this energy by keeping the idea of fun and lightheartedness in mind with everything you do at this time.

Leo:  If you're in the mood to work hard and focus, you're on the right track.  Leo is being given an extra push to concentrate on completing projects at this time.  You may open a new room in your home or rearrange your office.  You may be given a new opportunity at work.  Whatever it is, once you recognize it, grab ahold of it and go.

Virgo:  Try not to let your personal opinions be a big part of your decisions today.  Be as objective as you can.  Relations with close family and friends are likely to be good, however, you're likely to experience tension with a certain rival--probably at work.  Don't let him or her win.  Stand up for yourself instead of maintaining your usual laid-back, methodical style.

Libra:  It's a really good day for doing an in-depth study of something.  If you don't have something in mind, try meditating.  Digging into rarely visited depths is favored and you're likely to have valuable realizations at this time.

Scorpio:  If you assert yourself in a positive way today, you're likely to get some leadership role or opportunity you've been wanting.  Be prepared to give up something to make room for better things.

Sagittarius:  Buying, selling, and negotiating are favored for you today.  You're able to communicate well and present your ideas in a pleasing way.

Capricorn:  It's a good day to take time off and be a little lazy.  You deserve to relax if you can afford to.  Embrace a carefree feeling and enjoy yourself and others.

Aquarius:  You're probably feeling a bit like withdrawing from the outside world today.  It's a good time to take a break and reflect a little.  Relax and replenish yourself.  Appreciate the people and things that give you a sense of stability in life.  Focus on what you want in your professional life and start to become the success you see yourself as.

Pisces:  You may be feeling mentally restless.  You may be spread a little thin while trying to connect with all the people reaching out to you amidst your errands and responsibilities.  Enjoy the energy that comes with an eventful, fast-paced day.

A note on tomorrow's (Nov. 13th) solar eclipse in Scorpio and Mercury's retrograde motion...

Hello, Friends!

In place of today's horoscope, I'd like to share my interpretation of what tomorrow's solar eclipse in Scorpio means.  The way I see it (and for readers who are especially turned off by the mystical jargon and vagueness surrounding astrological topics, I apologize) is that there is going to be a bit of an internal quake that takes place.  Each of us has a place in the depth of our being that is untouched.  For some, this place will remain closed.  For most, that place will have a thing or two shaken loose.  We should prepare to honor truth, both truths we believe to exist for ourselves and truths that are accepted by humanity as a whole.  A sense of confidence and perhaps a renewed sense of certainty that you're headed down the right path is likely at this time.  Expect secrets to be revealed.  Expect to hear whispers from your subconscious mind.  Expect clarity in your heart.

With that being said, Mercury has been in retrograde for seven days now.  For those who don't remember, that means difficulty communicating, malfunctioning machines and computers, text messages and emails that are never received, car accidents, trouble focusing on the task at hand or an increasingly short attention span, and an increase in mental fogginess are likely during this time.  The retrograde period lasts until the 27th of this month, so be prepared.

For myself, I'm preparing for the Scorpion eclipse by opening my heart and mind for whatever creeps out from the depths of my being.  While some things may be troubling, I expect others to be enlightening, comforting, and inspiring.  I'll have a journal close by for myself and an open ear or shoulder for those who are troubled.  As far as Mercury's retrograde motion is concerned, I'm staying caffeinated, mindful, as clear and careful with my speech as I can be, and am driving defensively.

I hope to have horoscopes for everyone tomorrow.  Take care of yourselves.

Cindy

Horoscope for November 10, 2012

Aries:  You may have little disturbances in your close relationships today.  This may lead you to a place where you're not sure about where things are going.  If this happens, just mentally take a break from the topic and stay busy doing other things.  If you feel bad about a debate or argument you've recently had, don't.  It's not in your nature to varnish the truth or go without having your say.  The heat will pass.

Taurus:  There's a bit of a youthful, adventurous energy headed your way.  You may feel the urge to do something different.  Be sure to think things through and don't do something just for the sake of rebelling as a child would.  You're likely to look out for the underdog at this time and may be a little obsessed with your friends and coworkers.  I suggest embracing this energy, but knowing your place.

Gemini:  Gemini, or even people with Gemini in his or her natal chart, are almost guaranteed to feel a little foggy mentally.  Daydreaming and reminiscing are favored.  Trying to formulate ideas and communicate effectively is not.  If there's someone that seems to be avoiding you or answering your questions with vagueness, just leave him or her alone.  That person probably just needs to recharge in solitude.  It's nothing you've done.

Cancer:  Hey, Cancer Crabs!  Today is perfect for starting a change.  Self-improvements of all kinds are favored.  You just need to get out there and do it.  Be ready to let go of something if need be.  There's also a good chance someone in your inner circle needs your advice.  If you find yourself in this position, remember not to be too motherly or preachy and you can really help that person out.

Leo:  Today is all about generosity, creativity, and showing appreciation.  Indulge in the rewards of being nice and having fun.  Neptune entered into Pisces today, where it will stay for fourteen years.  For you, this means you are in a position to hone your intuitive abilities.  Also, be careful with taxes, insurance, and mortgages.  Read all the fine print and pay attention to every detail to guarantee success.

Virgo:  You're likely to be shaking things up a bit today.  Embrace the urge to do things differently from your usual routine.  It will be good for you.  Also, if you're getting fed up with a friend who seems to be getting walked on, don't try to stand up for him or her.  Offer moral support and patience instead.  It's not your place this time.

Libra:  There's a good chance you're feeling energetic and aggressive today.  If your will is blocked, watch your temper.  It's a good day to achieve goals.  If you're getting sick of someone you're close to, spend a little time away.  It will be good for both of you.

Scorpio:  It's a lazy day for Scorp.  You're at risk for self-indulgence and believing things will just work themselves out with no effort on your part.  It's a great time to take a vacation from your responsibilities.  Just don't go overboard.  Also, if you feel like you're being pushed or bossed around today, just keep your cool and let it go.  You're pretty independent and don't appreciate this kind of treatment, but this particular situation is only temporary.

Sagittarius:  Material benefits are likely to come your way.  Try not to spend too generously.  It's a great time for a vacation or a little indulging.  I would advise you to be reasonable, but part of you is a beast.  Sagittarius is known for working hard and playing hard.  I'm sure you deserve the fun you're likely to have today.  Also, expect your domestic realm and your understanding of where you're meant to be in the world to come into focus.  These topics are likely to stay in your mind for the next fourteen years.

Capricorn:  It's a really good time for exercising your creative mind.  Try making something today.  You're not in a good mental state to see romantic prospects clearly.  If you're in an established relationship, embrace being romantic.  If you're uninterested in any of this, just going to work and calling it a day isn't a bad idea.

Aquarius:  It's a nice time to spend the day conversing and exchanging ideas with other people.  If there's someone you're uncomfortable with, today is a good time to make a breakthrough.  You're able to be more candid and open than usual without insult or offense.  Isolating yourself into being alone would be your only mistake at this time.

Pisces:  If you're reading this now, take a moment to mentally commit to patience today.  I don't mean that you should do less or do those things with less urgency, but plan to stay positive and cheerful even if you find others standing in your way.  Just make sure you're not being used or letting anyone take advantage of you.  Make your sure your voice is heard.  Also, today marks the first day of a fourteen year period for which your finances and values come to the fore of your mind.  Small changes towards improving these areas are favored at this time.  Expect to feel especially good about yourself if you're saving, spending wisely, contributing, and doing things the right way.

Horoscope for November 2, 2012

Aries:  Don't be afraid to make decisions and speak your mind today.  It's likely to be a busy time with lots of errands and communication going on.  Getting an early start is favored.  You should be able to see both sides of an argument objectively at this time.

Taurus:  It's not a favorable time to sign contracts or make big decisions.  It's best if you focus on routine tasks and creative projects instead.  You can expect to feel a little restless.  You'll probably be texting and chatting with others to pass the time.

Gemini:  If you do creative work, you may be more critical than usual at this time.  If you're feeling uninspired or unappreciated, just focus on other things.  It's just a cloud of energy that will soon pass.  Don't sign any contracts or make any promises today.  If you're in a relationship with a pace you're confused about establishing, go with your gut.

Cancer:  It's important that you be patient with yourself and the work you're doing today.  Things may seem like they're dragging or even moving backwards, but they're not.  Just keep chipping away at whatever it is you're working on.  You may find yourself trying to make sense out of something that seems impossible to figure out.  Don't waste your time trying to get to the bottom of things and move on to a different task for now.

Leo:  Friendships and social alliances are strengthened and favored now.  It's a great time to work towards making accomplishments.  You should be able to enjoy your work in a harmonious environment full of positive energy.  Don't be surprised if you're feeling a little restless.  Going to a bookstore or library for ideas will be fruitful.

Virgo:  It's a good time to do work that requires great focus and self-control.  If you're feeling meditative or reflective today, seek the company of an elder or mentor.  When approaching conversation or responding to conflict at this time, enter with no anxiety and without a defensive attitude.  You'll put the other party at ease and guarantee a better outcome for yourself.

Libra:  You're likely to be experiencing intense thoughts and/or feelings today.  This is the start of a time period where you're going to latch onto an idea and become obsessed with it.  I suggest red-flagging this topic mentally and remembering not to force your opinion on others.  You'll avoid disrupting the harmony you prefer to have in your environment this way.

Scorpio:  There's a good chance you're feeling the itch to make a change today.  Your relationships are vulnerable at this time.  If you're feeling impulsive, force yourself to slow down and think things through.  I suggest clearing some time for freedom today so you can let your impulses expand openly.  In doing so, you will protect this energy from manifesting internally.

Sagittarius:  It's a good time to try something new.  You may feel like breaking free from your routine at this time--and you should.  You should try something you thought for sure you wouldn't like.  There's a good chance you'll be pleasantly surprised.  It can't hurt anyway.  It's a great day to get friends together for lunch.

Capricorn:  If you're able to tap into your creative side today, you'll find lots of inspiration.  Also, if you're presented with an opportunity that claims to be profitable, it's worth consideration.  Examine everything carefully so you know for sure if the risk is worth taking.

Aquarius:  You may be reaching a fork in the road with some project or work you've been doing.  Don't let the restrictions you experience stop you.  Don't just plow forward mindlessly either.  Should you find yourself reaching pause, evaluate your options and keep a positive mindset.  Redirecting your path is acceptable.  Giving up is not.

Pisces:  If frustration keeps visiting you today, don't be discouraged.  You've been working hard on something and shouldn't be deterred.  Also, if you're in a position to decide if a risk is worth taking, hold off for something that offers better rewards.  Don't be afraid to multitask or spend time communicating at this time.  This kind of activity is highlighted.

Horoscope for October 27, 2012

Aries:  You may feel a little off or more impatient than usual.  People are likely to behave erratically which can throw you off balance.  Take your time today.  Also, if you find that someone is coming to you for advice and your instinct is to straddle the fence on being critical/honest and being nice, choose to be honest. During this time, advice-seekers need to hear the truth.

Taurus:  You may have to sacrifice a little to feel in sync with others today.  A partial retreat to rehabilitate and rejuvenate your senses may be beneficial for keeping up with the crazies at this time.  Most Taureans prefer to have things planned and in order, but a little chaos is a good thing right now.  It helps you to think creatively on your feet.  Embrace the disorder that may be coming your way.

Gemini:  Don't be surprised if you feel more restless or nervous than usual today.  It's just the energy of the universe at this time and you're susceptible to it.  If you find your path changes, don't fight the force.  Just go the direction it's sending you.  Let me know if you're not happy you did.  I'll be surprised.

Cancer:  You're likely to encounter someone you'll be strongly attracted to in a sexual or emotional way.  If you're in a relationship, expect fireworks.  If you're partner isn't on board, turn to physical exercise.  Don't get angry with your partner if he or she isn't feeling it.  Just find an outlet for your energy instead.  For Cancers that are into such things, it's a particularly good time for casting spells, creating and performing mediations, and using visualizations to propel things forward.

Leo:  You're probably in a loving, giving, and possibly spiritual mood today.  You're more likely to nurture relationships and create romance and comfort for the people you encounter at this time.  Beautifying your surroundings is favored.  Making financial decisions or signing contracts is not.  You're not likely to make decisions in your best interest at this time.  Also, if there's somebody around that seems to be doing a lot of talking and you feel like someone should take one for the team and shut them up, hold your tongue.  Bow out of this one.  There isn't any harm being done.

Virgo:  Ambivalence or disagreements may occur in your closest relationships today.  A disturbing figure from your past may resurface in some way.  You may not be sure of where the relationship is going.  Gather what information you can from this experience and just wait things out.  It will be important to know at some point.  Be good natured about disagreements and differences.  Let them pass.  Also, if a lack of boundaries or direction is making you feel nervous, try to let go of your need for structure and embrace this particular form of freedom.

Libra:  You're probably going to attract attention and seem more beautiful than usual today.  Do something special to treat yourself.  Enjoy the company of others.  Also, tooting your own horn is fine when it's earned, but sometimes it's hurtful to others.  This is one of those times where you should pat yourself on the back quietly--even if you feel like singing from the rooftops.

Scorpio:  You're likely to be in your detective mood and ready to search out answers and information.  If you're studying a certain area of interest, expect to find lots of good stuff and gain new perspectives that can be quite enlightening.  It's also a great time to delve into the research required for making some big decision you've been putting off.  Time is running out and you don't want to be in a position where you have to decide on impulse.

Sagittarius:  Making big decisions or investments is a big risk right now, so hold off if you can.  It may be more difficult than usual to be patient, but really try.  There is a lot of energy for having fun at this time, so you should be able to enjoy your day.  Just stay away from tying anything down or giving any signatures until a later date.  Also, though you're a social being, try to save venting and going to friends for advice for another day.  People can't keep secrets right now and you're in a position to say too much anyway.  Just focus on other things... like fun!

Capricorn:  There's a good chance that you'll be able to communicate very effectively and with great articulation today.  It's a good time to express your opinions.  You're likely to find a new person in your circle of friends that is a little loud and quite opinionated.  Don't do your usual thing of disagreeing with him/her just because he/she's offensive.  Try to be open to what this person has to say.

Aquarius:  Don't be surprised if you're really sensitive to criticism of your ideas or projects at this time.  Try to rely on your own resources and work steadily and alone to avoid lashing out at authority figures or people who hold you back.  Also, if you're in a disagreement with someone you feel is taking things too seriously, try to step back and see if you're doing the same.  This is a person you love and respect.  Don't sever ties.

Pisces:  You're likely to wake up feeling sober and realistic towards love--not your usual feeling towards this subject.  Reach out to your true-blue friends for support.  Older, trusted people--mentors and family members--are helpful possibilities.  Also, keep fitness in mind.  It's a great time for you to start working on a new health regimen that will last for the next six months.

Horoscope for October 22, 2012

Aries:  There is a special bit of energy being sent your way that opens the opportunity to deepen your awareness and appreciation of life.  It's time to focus on nurturing yourself.  Schedule that dental exam. Start that new exercise routine.  Begin the yoga routine you've been meaning to try out.  Pay extra attention to the food you're putting into your body.  Treat yourself well.

Taurus:  If everything is lining up the way it's supposed to, you should be reaching a point where you can stop and examine how your hard work is paying off.  You're able to communicate well at this time. It should be a good day.  If you're not happy with your personal/romantic life, figure out what you want and go after it.

Gemini:  Expect warm feelings towards others and an urge to do something creative.  Also, if you find yourself being confronted about something today, remember to be diplomatic and think carefully before you speak.

Cancer:  If you know yourself at all, you've probably figured out that you're quite moody.  It can be difficult to function when your mood swings into a place where you don't feel like being social.  Normally, I would suggest being sensitive to your urges, but today it will be best for you to push through any social discomfort.  Figure out a way to be a part of things and keep a smile on your face.  You'll end up having a compelling experience.

Leo:  The lions are saucy today!  You can expect to have trouble being patient with anyone or anything that restricts you or stands in your way.  With all the good energy you're being given from the universe, it's a great time to take on new projects or finish old ones with your famous flair.  You belong in the spotlight and should expect to be admired should you find yourself being illuminated by one at this time.

Virgo:  Don't be surprised if you're a little tired today.  Don't let that stop you.  Keep the momentum concerning a certain goal you've worked so hard to create by pushing yourself.  It will be worth the exhaustion and discomfort, both of which are temporary.

Libra:  It's a great day for Librans to do mental work.  Intellectual conversations or debates, paperwork, and delving into philosophical topics are favored.  Remember this today:  be friendly, not critical.

Scorpio:  If you have a project or idea you've been wanting to put into motion, today is a great time to call on friends for help.  You'll find lots of support and will probably feel quite confident.  Strive for universal appeal at this time.  This is a great time to finish old things and start planning for new things.  Hold off on actually starting new projects until later.

Sagittarius:  Your natural ability to think on your feet and act impulsively/impatiently is intensified today.  Try to slow it down a little so you don't break something or hurt yourself.  With this sense of a slower pace in mind, don't be afraid to make a wish.  Let someone know what you want for yourself right now and don't hesitate to expect success.

Capricorn:  It's likely that if you have a problem you've been dealing with, today is the day you'll get to the bottom of it.  Also, do a mental scan and see where you're at when it comes to your work.  Do you feel like you're just a small part of a big machine?  You're much bigger than that.  You need to give yourself more credit and watch as your rewards increase.

Aquarius:  It's a good day to be at work and/or spend time with a lover if you have one.  Be open to strengthening bonds and enjoying the company of others.  If you're of the Aquarian group that isn't feeling these good vibes, plan to work alone.  It's just the universe and the feeling will pass.  You just need a little time away from it all.

Pisces:  An old friend or lover may contact you today.  Other than that, it's a good idea to stay on top of your daily tasks.  Don't get sloppy or distracted and you'll have yourself a lovely day.  Romance isn't favored, so again, just stay on top of your routine.